Gym Today.

Yes I have suddenly been bitten by the motivation bug, so I will be attending gym today which I'm actually looking forward to. I have to work my ass off so I am sweating like a pig.

The weather in little old Plymouth is awful at the moment but I'm not letting it stop me from doing my work out, I did a workout from my Davina Body Buff DVD and it was painful. I don't know why but my legs began aching and striking a pain straight up through my shin's, I don't know what caused it but it was enough to make me stop and consider what I was doing. I took it a little calmer after that and thankfully got through the workout.

But today it's back to the gym, I have to go again on Thursday and then maybe Saturday if I can will myself to do it, it's all about determination, and that is something I struggle quite a lot with.

A very random source has reminded me of why I'm doing this, and that would be my brother's sister, her name is Taylor and she's actually lovely. Strange, thinking that a girlfriend can get along so well with the sister, usually that doesn't happen.

She's joining my gym this Saturday and going to be doing a thorough workout on the day, but I shall be joining her on the Monday and we'll be going gym together every Monday, Wednesday and Friday and maybe one of the days on the weekend as well. Taylor is very strong minded so I know she'll keep me to my routine, and she'll make me pay if I don't.

(Another one of my friend's Elicia, is supposed to be joining gym but I haven't heard anything more about it)

I will be doing everything I can now to desperately lose as much weight as possible because I know that it's going to be a rough journey but one I'm willing to travel.

I really hope I can stay on the straight and narrow and work my ass off, I have a trim fit body to obtain and then maintain. Fingers crossed everyone that with the right people I will be able to lose the weight and finally be able to appreciate myself..

Tomorrow if I can, I shall be updating again and this time I'll be posting a photo of myself when I was skinny and nice, I wasn't too skinny a nice small size 10 which was one of my favourite sizes, so let's hope that with the right amount of effort I will be able to look like that again.

Don't worry you'll see it tomorrow and then you'll know what I'm talking about.

I'm ready for the hard work to come, bring it on.

Behind On Blogging.

Big Oops..

I have been behind on my blogging I would like to get at least 2 posts out a week if I could but my schedule has been a little bit messed up and I haven't been able to get online nearly as much as I would like to.

I have been struggling recently with a lot of things, from college work to home problems, but that is no excuse to affect my exercise but it has.

It's time to be extremely honest, I have been struggling with the exercise part of my weight loss plan, the main section EXERCISE and I haven't quite figured out how to tackle it head on. My boyfriend is struggling with his weight at the moment and I'm trying to encourage him to lose weight but I haven't been taking my own advice, which has left me a little lost.

After the incident of my boyfriend buying me a bag of cookies which has over 1000 calories in I've struggled with exercise and motivation, I also have been struggling to keep up with my diet. It's extremely easy to fall back into bad habits but now I have been halving my calorie intake and am constantly under my daily calorie goal on My Fitness Pal it isn't something to be proud of but I'm glad that I haven't been going over, I'd rather be under by a lot than over by a lot.

The starvation feeling has become a second nature to me now, and I've already noticed a little weight loss of my thighs which is great, as this is one of my main troubled area's.

Now I have to tackle the gym and my exercise DVD, I have done a couple workout's recently from my Davina Body Buff DVD and it's been going okay and I can feel myself getting a bit fitter, I've also been cleaning and walking my dogs more to add that little bit more exercise to my day to day life, I've even been walking to my boyfriend's in horrendous weather just to lose that little bit more weight.

It hasn't been easy, my muscles are strained but not enough to lose weight as quickly as I'd like to, I would like to lose a certain amount of weight a week, so I've finally come to a decision.

I am waiting until the 1st of February and that's when things get serious. I will have 1 month to lose a lot of weight before an important wedding and I will be aiming to lose as much as possible, I want to look my best for a change. 

This is what I'll be doing, I shall keep up with the low calorie intake and then I shall start going gym even more than I originally planned, then that's when I am higher, not only will I go gym more but I shall be pushing myself to walk almost everywhere, I shall take my dogs out almost everyday, and I shall be making myself feel better.

No more of this low-confidence b***-***t it's time to start thinking positive, after all I am doing this for me. 

And only me.

I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and say 'I worked bloody hard for this,' and be proud of what I see not ashamed, you should never have to feel ashamed in yourself. I can promise you, it's a horrible feeling and will keep you down for longer than you care to think.

But that's enough of this memory flashback of my week couple weeks, it's time to look forward and up, so I hope you keep pushing yourself and aiming high and remember, you can do it!

You can do it.

Don't let anyone prove you wrong. 

Motivation.

I have been looking through photo's on this tumblr page and it's actually helping and I highly recommend for you all as well, it's a great way of reminding yourself as to why you're doing what you have to do.

Here is the link: http://beforeandafterfatlosspics.tumblr.com

It's amazing how much something so simple as looking at other's people success can encourage you to carry on with the same journey.

I just hope with a little push and a bit of hard work I will be able to succeed and one day be able to take pictures of myself without being ashamed.

Here's just an example of what you'll be able to see on the website.

Another Missed Gym Trip.

Monday has passed and I've missed another gym session, only due to how bad my knee was but thankfully due to a good soaking and a couple fresh dressings my knee is looking much better, so tomorrow I shall do my best to do the intense workout I usually do and then I will be able to get back into my routine.

Sorting out my sleeping routine maybe a good start that is for sure, I have to confess that I've had too many relapses recently and had too much chocolate. I have felt disgusting from eating it but don't you worry it'll be the end of it soon. I know I keep saying it but I really do HAVE to mean it.

I have been considering how much weight I should have lost recently and I am behind on my schedule and really need to whip myself into shape, which I shall be doing tomorrow. I have to start gently and slowly to make sure my knee doesn't rip open, but it can be done.

Let me tell you exactly how I've relapsed, my boyfriend has a tendency of buying my food, I can cope with that it's just the kind that I don't like (well, that's a big lie. It tastes amazing) he buys me Cookies and Chocolate's and so many more sweet treats. I have learned to resist to a certain extent. I really hope everyone else is doing well with their diets and exercise and hope you're not having as much trouble as I am.

Who knew so many obstacle's would be in my way.

Good luck everyone.

Missed Today's Gym Trip.

Today I was supposed to go to the gym for the second time and unfortunately was unable to, but thankfully I have a good reason for not going just a very unusual one. Here is why:

I promise you it isn't nearly half as bad as it looks thank goodness, but it is extremely painful and has left me bandaged all day and liming here and there. It is rather annoying and still in a lot of pain.

The bit that annoyed me the most about the whole situation was the fact it tore a massive hole through my new leggings, I paid good money for them and only wore them once and now they have to go in the bin. Actually I may just change the hole in the leggings and maybe do some patch work or something? You never know I might end up by making a cool new style and it also recycles my leggings, I could use them as lounging leggings instead.

The story of my knee injury:

I caught the bus with my friend Shauna and we were giggling about the how heavy my bags were, I said 'These bags are so heavy I'm going to topple over in any minute,' and surprise surprise I did.

I literally fell flat on my face, it was on a downwards hill as well so not only did I fall but I fell hard, I managed to save everything and didn't break my phone or anything.

As I was laid across the floor I didn't move for a moment, Shauna began to worry and started giggling in a worried tone saying 'Ellie, Ellie you okay?' and then I finally began to laugh, I was in hysterics for a moment, due to being in a little shock. I finally dragged myself to my feet to have Shauna fuss over me for the moment to make sure I was okay, and then finally we were on our way again.

It wasn't until we managed to get into college that I finally thought of my knee and then saw the lovely blood red colour that was all over my knee, of course I got hold of a teacher and got the whole problem sorted.

But due to the lovely accident I had today it stopped me from going gym, as I need to wait until the healing process is done and then I can get back there and work my ass off.

Don't you worry I will be working twice as hard, that is for sure.

Difficulties Are Sinking In.

All right, I did have the wonderful news of losing 3.8 lbs in the very early stages of my dieting and exercise the only downside, I seem to have had mini relapses recently.

This alone is enough to be disappointed in, but the disappointed feeling is making me want to give up, but thankfully I haven't plus, it's far to early to even start considering giving up now. I have been a little naughty with the food I've been eating but I have found a way to stop myself, I'm going to eat the last of the 'naughty food' and then that's it. I will no longer be tempted to eat any more bad food.

This is it, I really have to buckle down and get on with it, this weight isn't going to shift itself. I just need to make sure that everyone I know is with me on this one. As I will need help to remove junk food from my diet completely, I will have to get used to eating more fruit and choosing fruit over a packet of snack-a-jacks, as let's face it the calories basically make the choice for you.

I will also by adding more to my exercise routine as I don't believe gym 3 times a week will be enough, although the friend whose also weight-watching has given me a wonderful routine for the gym, and this is what it is:

• 30mins - Treadmill

• 20mins - Bicycle

• 20mins- Cross Runner

It is so simple, yet extremely effective but as seen as I'm quite unfit I found the whole process of it quite tiring and it really wore me down. I actually had to stop after those three exercises the first time, but I am ready to do it for the second time and this time I will do better.

I have added a couple more bits and bobs to the routine to tackle all my problem areas, for example:

• 10 sets of 3 reps on Leg Press

• 10 sets of 3 reps on Hip Adductor

• 10 sets of 3 reps on Hip Adductor (They have 2 different machine's for this one)

• 10 sets of 3 reps on Abdominal Crunch

• 10 sets of 3 reps on Various Weights

You'll always notice one thing, it's going to be a while before I can do this routine without any troubles but I'll gradually get there and then I will be able to say exactly how much my fitness has improved and hopefully my weight loss as well.

Good luck with your weight loss and wish me luck, we can do this.

Don't give up.

Weigh In.

Yes people I had my first weigh in and you won't believe it, my hard work is actually paying off.

I lost 3.8lbs and am stupidly excited about it, I can't wait to go gym tonight for 2 hours to work off even more fatty tissues and replace it with muscle.

I have a friend working with me now, her name is Lorna and she's doing an amazing job she lost 4lbs in a week!

It's nice to know you can count on people to support you through a difficult time, especially as seen as losing weight has to be one of the most difficult tasks I've done.

I hope all you dieters are doing well, and keep it up.

Davina - Body Buff (Buff Cardio & Buff Boxing)

I done two workouts so far on the DVD, well including the Buff Warm-up which is actually quite enjoyable second time around. I'll do my walk-through of the Buff Cardio first and then Buff Boxing.

Buff Cardio Workout

I knew from reading the back of the case that this workout was going to be a lot more intense than I expected, and it is in fact the best one on the DVD to lose weight with. The only downside it really does kick your ass to begin with, I was in sweats in no time, maybe that's due to my unhealthy fitness or what, but it was harsh. My muscles were still aching today, especially my calves. They are killing me.

I would definitely say it kicks your ass, and in a good way. Make sure you have a good amount of room to do it and also, try not to throw up like I did. Who knew I was quite so unfit. I definitely know I didn't.

Buff Boxing Workout

I did this one today and not long ago, and I can honestly say it is my favourite workout so far (even if I have only done two). The workout is simple with a few twists and turns, but it really works those core areas that you want to hit first. It did leave me sweaty and I was quite thankfully that the woman who hosts alongside Davina and a Man, did the easier option for a section I was finding particularly difficult. 

It's also nice to know that you have that option there, you don't have to follow Davina the whole way through, it's nice to have something to build up to.

I would definitely recommend this workout if your going to use his DVD and it's new to you, on the other hand I know quite a few people have already tried out some of Davina's DVD's and know what to expect.

The Next Update

The next update about this DVD will be done as soon as possible, but I'll wait until I've done a couple workouts so I have more to write about, also the diet is going okay. I have had a little trouble here and there on constantly being hungry and not quite sure on how big my portions should be, but it seems to be going well. I have found a way of allowing the tiniest amount of junk into my diet and that is by eating one of it and nothing more. It's annoying and leaves me craving so much more but it is a way to teach myself to stop craving the junk.

It is hard work I can tell you that much.

I hope if you're dieting, it's going well for you! Can't wait to post again soon.

Oh, Happy New Year By The Way!

I completely forgot to let you know how my very last day of having junk food went, well I can honestly say it was heaven. I must have stuffed my face ape thing rotten. There was junk food going in left right and centre.

Which although was great because it tasted amazing has also meant I will have to work harder when trying to get the weight off. I think my brain went on a sad moment and indulged itself one last time, well can't blame the poor thing it's going to be constantly hungry for the next 6 months.

On the other hand my New Year's Eve went rather well, I enjoyed a lot of alcohol, all free because one of my Friends works behind the bar, and also we enjoyed good company and a lot of laughs. It did get interrupted but that's okay because we've rein-checked for another time.

I even had my first strawberry daiquiri, and may I just say they are god's gift to alcohol!

Here are a couple pictures of how I looked that night.

(Also included a little picture of Shauna hearing some shocking news)

Why don't you tell me about your New Year's Eve.

Diet Begins.

Okay, so it's the second day into my diet and exercise plan. If you remember I said I wasn't going to do anything on the 1st due to clearing out the old clothes and basically preparing myself for the long and painful journey ahead of me.

Well day one was a complete pain, and honestly I haven't been able to remove all junk from my diet I have had a couple biscuits, but a couple I actually only mean 2. Which isn't horrific. I also began work on my new exercise DVD that I bought in the new year.

I have bought 2 DVD's and they are:

Unfortunately Jillian Michaels hasn't arrived yet but Davina has, and I did one of the 30 minute workouts and almost threw up, it was brutal. The only good side, is that I will be doing it everyday I don't go gym which is Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday.

I will actually do a review on both DVD's as well, as a bonus for my posting, so after a couple months I shall let you know how I have found the DVD and if it is good enough to fit into your day to day life. Because let's face it we want to have a decent workout but also something easy to follow and demanding, and by demanding I mean result worthy.

I have heard that the Davina DVD is actually very good and has some good results I just hope Jillian turns up soon as well so I can try out her workouts as well. 

I even got myself an armband for my iPhone so it can record my jogs and so on when I'm out jogging or at the gym, which is just perfect for me. I never realised how much easier it would  be if I had one.

All right so that is all I can really update for the moment, apart from the fact that I shall update you weekly about my weight and measurements etc, and I also be letting you know if I'm struggling emotionally or physically through the workouts and the diet, as already I am looking at Chocolate like it should be wrapped up and kept in my arms where it'll be safe. Let's hope this phase passes me soon.

Good luck everyone with your new year, and make sure you WORK HARD!