Renewed Motivation.

We all have those moments where we suffer from lack of motivation, and trust me it's hit me like a train this following week. I have been struggling to get even the slightest bit of motivation to drag my sorry ass out of bed, it has been a tough one. 

But now I've been blessed with motivation, I have been craving it badly and now it's finally arrived, I hadn't realised for quite some time how I wanted to push myself and better myself.

Now it's happened, I am ready more than ever to push myself to the limits I have to, to finally get the results am I so badly craving.

I have been going gym with my gym buddy Taylor still and things have been going well, not only is she half way to losing a stone but she's sailing towards her goals, I suffered badly with her good fortune. Finding myself crippled in pain at my failure. 

This is where my motivation dwindled, I felt that I was failing because I wasn't seeing the same results as my gym buddy, which mean't I wasn't going to get any results the way she was. 

But you have to work through it, especially if you have a gym buddy who is sailing and you aren't, there are ways to work through it but you just have to push your mental mind more than probably care to think about.

Attitude is everything, it couldn't be more important to always remember that, even if you aren't seeing the results you expect continue forwards and pursue your goals. Don't let a small fault put you back at the beginning. You should always move forwards, this is major downfall.

Always give yourself something to aim for as well, small goals for example getting a certain amount of calories on a machine. Then when it's the next time you use that machine, aim higher. Always excel.

I have begun to take my diet more seriously than I ever have before, and even begun drinking water 'well, like it was water' I need to detox my body and also push my metabolism higher. I will be drowning myself in green tea as well, and I'll be viewing more and more motivational images like these below. 

They will be a constant reminder of why and what reasons I'm doing this for, and then it proves to me that this can be done. It is possible to hit your goals, you just have to forget about the negative and move forwards. I know I have mentioned that more times than I care to share, but it's extremely important, and if you're going through the same difficulties as I am, I don't want you following the same annoyingly cold path that I did, you can take the short cuts.

Good exercising and dieting.

Next Week.

Okay as you know I've been extremely ill recently and been bedridden for a good part of it, but now things are going to change. I haven't been able to go gym this week so far but I have been able to decide on another plan, I am going to be doing some rather long and productive walking tomorrow which isn't only just good for me exercise wise but will burn off the calories of the food I'll be eating tomorrow.

I'm going to be having a KFC bargain bucket with Lewis for our 3 year anniversary, even though it was today. I know we are a classy pair, having ourselves some KFC but we never treat ourselves to junk food any more, we always eat more meals and that's it. I'll be having a McDonald's cheeseburger with my friend whom I'm also meeting tomorrow.

It's going to be a high calorie day but thankfully it's okay because me and Lewis have to walk to get our food and then walk back and of course I have to walk to meet my friend as well, each walk there and back are roughly an 1 hour or more, so it's going to be a good day for exercise.

Now all I have to do is somehow find a way to get myself back to gym, I have managed to talk Taylor (Gym buddy) into doing 2 half and hour workouts from my workout DVD, and we'll see how that goes, because it'll give us a nice change from going gym all the time.

I wanted to make sure you all knew that I have still been eating healthily even though I haven't been gym, and I've been very good and been lowering my calorie count due to the lack of exercise I'm doing, I know you only really need high calories for when you're exercising as well.

Things are going okay, but next week is going to be a whole new experience.

Taylor and myself have decided that we are going to work our ass off at the gym, the whole three days we go next week. It's going to be tough and probably will kill us, but it'll be worth it if we get the results we are so badly craving.

I just hope that I'll be completely better and healthy by then, because being ill is just something I do not enjoy.

Losing Weight And Illness.

Isn't it typical, I am a couple weeks into my exercise routine and I fall ill, it's almost too predictable, I almost never get ill yet this just happens to be my luck. I am on the other hand losing weight, even if it isn't nearly as much as I should be losing. I have lost 0.4 of a pound, and considering my weight has been flying up and down the scales for a little while it's actually wonderful that there are some results appearing, if it's small.

I have been going 3 times a week with my gym buddy Taylor and we have been having a generally good time, the routine has become a bit stale but we've spicing it up here and there, and of course the more we go the more we'll improve and the more we'll be able to start pushing ourselves to limits we almost didn't believe we'd be able to do.

Taylor has been doing amazing at gym and even pushing herself on the treadmill to burning 450+ calories, I haven't been quite that successful even if I do the same exercise straight down to the effort level and gradient, but maybe I've got to push myself even more. I have promised myself that when I go gym on Monday I am starting the running workout, I know it seems silly going on a treadmill and not running but this time will be different, my goal is to be able to run 5k with no struggles.

I'm not sure if Taylor has any specific goals that she's aiming for at gym but she's doing amazing, we did unfortunately struggle yesterday as she's drained of energy after a long week and I've fallen stupidly ill, there is nothing worse than struggling to breath and having your whole body ache whilst trying to do exercise, I did give it a go but it just strained me more than I could handle but I am doing everything within my power to get better before Monday, if not it may have to be a vigorous session with me complaining the whole way through.

If anyone has any advice for working through the common cold and flu without dying please comment, you'd be doing me a huge favour. As I am struggling quite a lot, and more than I should be because I honestly can't handle being ill, it doesn't happen very often for me and when it does my body goes into shock I'm sure of it.

I hope everyone is working their asses off and toning those bellies, all getting ready for the summer.

I'll do my best to keep you as updated as I possibly can, mind you when you don't have the internet it isn't the easiest thing to do, I can tell you that now.

Wishing you all luck, and hope everything is going smoothly for you all, well more so than mine.

A Quick Update & A Thank You.

I know that I've been terrible with updates lately and trust me, I apologize. I should be on top of them but I'm just not. I have on the other hand started planning a better dietary routine and also decided that I will deserve one treat once a week, I just have to do my best to stick to it.

I will treat myself once a week starting from tomorrow, and Monday shall be my treat day for that week. Then no more treats for the rest of the week, it'll be hard but I'm slowly mentally preparing myself for it.

I have on the other hand, had a very successful week of gym training with Taylor. For the first few workouts we decided to take it a little more calmer than usual and now we've stepped it up a gear. Instead of doing the usual 1 hour and 10 minute workout, we are now doing a 1 hour and 30 minute workout. I have felt the burn so much recently that I've found myself struggling in simple day to day tasks like walking, and climbing stairs. Who knew these would be my mainly affected areas of pain, but we are doing a long cardio workout which does strain almost all of my leg muscles.

I have also felt a little effect on my belly, a nice trimmer feeling but I'm not sure if that's just due to the workout or the fact I've been under my calorie count every day of the week. I have been extremely well on My Fitness Pal I have been under my calorie count for quite a few weeks now, I've had some close calls but I've fought through them.

Unfortunately, I forgot to take a photo of me and Taylor during our first gym workout together, but don't worry. I can promise you it all went extremely well, she's also enjoying the perks of attending gym, and by that I mean all the muscle men who walk around wearing their teeny tiny tank tops. I'm just glad I don't have to pry her off them all the time, thankfully she has quite a bit of self control.

I also have quite a few thanks to say to Taylor for giving me the motivation to constantly work through the pain and keep pushing forwards, she's also made sure I've gone gym on time and attended everyday we said we would, and I just know that with her help we'll be able to work through our fatty problem and get the bodies we're both craving so badly.

It's amazing how much difference having a gym buddy can make, I didn't realise it until now that, that was what I was struggling with, the fact I had no one with me whilst doing the most important part of my weight loss journey, I just needed someone there with me to help me through the pain and fatigue whilst at the gym.

Now that I have that, it's time to move forwards.

BRING IT ON.

Gym Buddies.

I have myself a gym buddy as I've told you all about in one of my recent posts, and her name is Taylor Ebsworth my boyfriend's younger sister. We've both had problems with our weight recently due to relationships and the more comfortable life that comes with them, but now it's time for a change.

So far together we have had 2 successful sessions, we've even began to organise a decent routine and expand it more to get the best weight workout we can possibly get. Our work lasts roughly 90 mins (1 hour and 30  mins) at the moment, but our next session will be lasting 110 mins (1 hour and 50 mins). Doing this three times a week whilst dieting and cutting our calorie count down to 1200 calories a day should hopefully result in a quick and balanced weight loss. It's going to be brutal and tough, after our second work out I found myself struggling but still pushing forwards.

We have so far prepared our workout to this:

20 mins: Bike (Effort level 4 and above, whilst pedalling 60 - 80 rpm)

20 mins: Cross Runner (Effort level 6 and above, whilst going 140+ rpm)

30 mins: Treadmill (Varied, Taylor enjoys intervals of jogging and a brisk walk. Whilst I prefer hard brisk walking up hill, then short intervals of jogging)

This workout alone can take it's toll on us , but Taylor has found herself still bursting with energy so we've decided to add Rowing into the workout to see if this will give us that extra push to losing just a little more weight.

20 mins: Rowing Machine (Effort level 6 and above, intervals of steady pass, quick burst etc.)

I must admit, I do struggle with the Rowing Machine because it causes problems with my hip, I know I'm 19 and shouldn't be saying things like that, but it does happen. I have decided to take thing a little slower than Taylor because I think I might struggle with this one, but I'm ready and that's all I can be.

I have considered changing out mid-week workout (Wednesday) to a weights day, but I think this heavy cardio workout is the best way to go for now, well until we start to see results that is.

This is the part of working out that I struggle with most, I am constantly expecting to see instant results and this is where I fall back into a relapse of my old behaviour, but thankfully Taylor has a firm tongue and is demanding, she'll make sure I'll stick to this routine and if I don't she'll give me the grief and motivation to remind me why I'm doing this.

It's going to be tough, but now that I have Taylor there with me and I'm not so alone as I once was, I think I'll be able to get through this.

Introducing A New Page.

I'll be introducing a new page to this blog very soon, I'll be my weight lose diary. I'll try and weight lose diary as much as possible, I'll also be planning to check my weight twice a month from my first weigh-in day.

I must admit I am a little panicked about having weight, but I'm also nervous about losing weight as it'll be such a successful feeling which I haven't truly felt in a long time.

I hope you enjoy the new page and once it's ready and prepared with it's first entry I'll put up the page for you all to see, along with the date for the new weigh-in. I'll do my best to update the blog on the same day.

There will also be the following updates:

• My first gym session with Taylor accompanied with an image of us both, before starting.

• The release date of my Dear Diary page.

• My first photo's to show you exactly what body I'm trying to improve.

• Cravings and how I struggle with them.

• The new plan for exercise and diet.

• Starvation.

• Weigh-In day.

• The true feelings behind each bite of food, and desperate cravings for losing weight.

Each blog post will have addition stuff and news along with them, but for the moment enjoy those delicious foods and get out an exercise.

Motivational Pictures & Gym Partners.

 The Younger Me.

Okay, let's face it we all have those images tucked away somewhere of us when we were younger, here are three of my almost 'full body' images.

I've always been a little strange about having my full body image taken but this was a time where I actually didn't mind quite so much. It's also the comfortable size I would love to get back to.

Each one was roughly around the time I believe, not quite sure to be honest. Although it was a time where my arms looks trim and nice and my legs weren't awful and large and my stomach didn't have a muffin top.

It's just a matter of looking at these images every now and again to give myself the encouragement I need to lose more and more weight, I have finally got myself a wonderful enthusiastic gym partner. 

Actually, let me tell you about my gym partner. Her name is Taylor Ebsworth and she's my boyfriend's sister, she's 17 going on 18 and desperate to lose the pounds she's gained during a long-term relationship, as that relationship has gone the weight hasn't. It's stuck around like an unwanted guest.

 

But every since she's found out about the gym I go to, she's joined and decided it's time to change her life. She's even joined My Fitness Pal to keep serious track of her calorie intake and exercise routine. We've been working as a team preparing ourselves for our first joint gym session and we've decided going hard and tough is the best way to go.

We want to shift the pounds quickly and be ready for a wedding which is next month and our birthday's which are coming quicker than we dare to think about.

Exercise and dieting is a must do, especially at the moment.

It's all about aiming high and with Taylor's strong will and determination and my quick thinking and planning, we'll work together as a great team and finally get ourselves looking fit for both single and taken life.

Maybe I'll even start tanning once I look good, just so I don't look like a ghost any more, I can't wait for that overwhelming feeling of satisfaction when I look in the mirror, I'll finally be happy with what I see.